1:08am

Crazy…

  I can’t believe this s*** I just dropped to my knees with the question why… couldn’t stop the tears from flowing. My chest is so heavy right now. I knew you since we were little, innocent, and pure. I watched you bury your best-friend your brother. I saw the hurt in your mother’s eyes. It broke my heart when I found out she died trying to find the beauty that was already created inside. I felt your pain all these years it’s been hurting  you , true definition of existing and not living. As we all tried to comfort you . I tossed and I turned so much last night.  I just  could not sleep. If I would have known in that very second that you were leaving Maybe my prayers would have been stronger a little intense and deep. Some say that time heals all wounds… I’m just trying to find the strength to make it through tonight’s thoughts of you…. Rest Jay….

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Author: crystal22clear

Trying to balance my crown through spoken word in silence sentences..... I'm a 80s baby ...I'm quite the lady...I'm quiet and such... sometimes a little Rowdy not giving a fuck...I'm sensitive at times stingy with my emotions...adjusting my crown under this world's cruel potions ...in my words you will find my rhythm and my Blues ...please don't get it confused nor misconstrued...my living will not be in vain ...don't cause your self to go insane ...worrying if my post are about you ...I just happened to feel the same way you do... I'm a 80s baby ...I like hip hop and soul food graffiti on walls in my Converse shoes... I seen things unknown and cried tears of blue... I'm sorry if I feel the same way you do... swimming pool of emotions bottled and confused... I guess you can say I'm a ocean never ending and wide mysterious harsh courageous with pride..humbled when I crash vulnerable inside...

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